almost 4? make that almost 8.

i remember the first time i held her. she was all squishy, her hair was darker than i thought it would be. and there was way more of it than i had imagined. her face was round and her nose was a mirror imagine of mine. she was covered in vernix. and as i looked at her i fell in love. what a gift she was. did i ever mention she was the first girl in 75 yrs on Darrin's side?. that is a whole lot of boys. and now, she is almost 4. i have had so many days of wonderful with this girl. so many days of snuggles, kisses and love you momma's. Getting to experience her independence, strong will, and sass. I have so many hopes and dreams for her. I hope she is kind to others, i hope she is honest and caring. i hope she keeps her curiosity and sense of adventure always. i hope she is gracious and kind, loving and forgiving. More than anything, i hope she is forever happy.

I wrote this almost 4 years ago. i found it in my drafts when I was going to edit some new posts. I still look at this girl with adoration and love. She is as independent as ever, and is exerting it quite a bit these days. There's a lot of sighing, head lag and blank stares coming my way. But there is also a lot of learning, trust and a whole lot of love. I still have the same hopes and dreams for her, still hope we are shaping her to be a kind and caring person, and of course, forever happy. Happy almost birthday Puddy - I think you are the bees knees and I love you more than you know!